Hi Snatchers!
It has been quite some time since I have written in my safe space and honestly, it has been a whirlwind of months. I tell you I think 2020 and 2021 planned for us to start roughly in the new year. I have been going through emotional turmoil honestly with people in certain social circles and it honestly has been draining. The abundance of negativity and slander has made my soul weary. I started this new year with getting myself right (or so I thought) when I started a 30-day program to get me back into the habit of working out consistently each week. By week two I was struggling, I was sore from working out 6 days in a row, I was low on energy, and honestly was not tracking correctly. I felt disappointed in myself because I know I can do better, and I have. I think about all the times I use to go into the gym and lift those weights like they were nothing and now I struggle to stay consistent on a meal or workout plan. Though is that not hypocritical of what I tell you all? That we should be patient with ourselves during our transitions? This a journey, we will always have moments where we mess up and take a detour, but detours take us right back to where we need to be.
I know how hard it can be and I have to be patient. I cannot just sit here getting on myself and eventually I told myself it’s okay despite that I missed two weeks but in those two weeks that I didn’t exercise I started my internship for my marriage and family therapy program and was finalizing a sexual misconduct series for an organization. That was exciting and nerve-wracking, as you all may have seen on my IG or Facebook that I got my approval to start my internship on the 11th hour. My first team meeting was phenomenal, and I love my site supervisor and my school supervisor is great too, overall, I have a great team that wants to see me succeed in life. I got to meet two families one where a child has so much potential to do better and an aunt who loves him and wants to push him to do better. Another family I saw was going through a dark period as her granddaughter fought her inner demons, voices, and delusions. I offered that grandmother counsel and she told me I have a beautiful presence and that it matters, even if I did not speak a lot my presence said a lot. Ladies, I felt phenomenal I felt like crying because I finally know for sure this is the field for me, this is the field I need to be in. My heart went out to both of these children that need guidance and the families that sought help and plead for it. I am here to serve families, couples, and individuals and I want to help them discover the strength they already have for their situation. This is my passion! #MFTinthemaking
I live this in my motto with Road to Snatch, to help women love themselves a little more than the night before and I will continue to live by that motto along with “Always choose you” and “Mana O’lana” (Faith.Hope.Confidence). I want to provide for myself the way I hope to provide to you all!
My 2021 did not start the way I wanted to and honestly, the month hasn’t gotten much better but when I think about those two families, I think about my own self-love journey and how I was so damaged almost 9 years ago after a failed relationship (I didn’t start loving myself the way I should have until much later about 3 or 2 years ago recent right?) and I think about how I was using fitness to love myself again I have so much to give to you all and to myself. I can’t give up, I can’t talk down to myself, I can’t be torn down, I can’t allow myself nor others to tear me down. I deserve so much more. I have to refill my cup and focus on things that truly matter to me. So you know what? RESET
That is right! I am calling the reset button again, on Jan 26th I stopped making excuses for myself and I joined an online gym community with like-minded women. Women who were struggling and tired of making excuses or letting situations dictate their lives. I now have a community that is holding me accountable again, I get to learn to fall in love with my workout routine again, I was out of breath for a 20-minute workout and automatically thought “dang I need to build my stamina” AHT AHT AHT NO I reframed and said Great job shay, you got up, danced, and you smiled! You may have paused a bit, but you jumped right back in and made it to the end. I surely did! I took a picture, sweat and all, posted it on both my IG accounts and Facebook. The ladies congratulated me, were proud of me, encouraged me, and pushed me. I love it. I needed it, and I thanked them. I’m back and I have goals to obtain as I reach near my big 30!
This Road to Snatch is not easy ladies but it is doable. It feels easy to throw in the towel at times, but don’t give up. Go ahead and cry and shout ( I surely have had my share of a few tears). Go ahead and shout when it gets overwhelming, it is okay to do so! We are not perfect and we never will be, but we can embrace ourselves during our lows and highs. I love you snatchers always choose you, please always choose you. You are worth the efforts, the tears, the screams, the push, the rise, the accomplishments, and so much more. You are enough and will always be enough!
Love you Snatchers!
Forever Always Shay “Snatcher” Moore
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